Pea's Dance solo.. and update!

So, I am no longer a stay at home mommy, as I have started working full-time last Friday!  Hooray!  Although, I will not have much time for my babies, which believe me.. I cried A LOT.. nothing means more to me, than seeing my babies grow up.  I don't like missing a THING.  And I love being the centre of attention when it comes to both my daughters eyes.. but, I do need to help my hubby out, so a mommy's gotta' do, what a mommy's gotta do.  It's taking too long to get to where we'd like to be.. and when the opportunity came up, and I got a job offer.. I didn't hesitate to go and take it.  Too many signs were leading up to that moment.  Anyhow!  Here is today's dance solo, featuring..my one and only.. SWEET PEA! <3

Back to reality..

Today is my last day being at home with the girls..and it's hitting me HARD.  I'm a super suck when it comes to family, or even more, my own kids.  I would give anything to stay at home with them, and watch them grow into beautiful little girls.. but since being a SAHM isn't a paying job, I need to go make some money, and help my hubby out.. at this rate, it would take us a few more years to move out of this apartment.. and I'd like it to happen a lot sooner.. so when my old boss contacted me and offered me a job.. I didn't hesitate to take it.  All the other jobs I applied for didn't even give me an interview, except for one.  And at the job I'm going back into, I didn't apply for, or even need to get an interview.. so I took it as a sign.

Earlier, I held my babies tight, and let the tears flow.  I didn't think it would be that hard for me to realize how much time will be taken away from them.. I will definitely appreciate being with them more so, then I used too, 'cause let's face it.. staying home and doing all the chores and raising kids, is NOT easy, and it is totally draining.  So there are definitely days where I'm too zoned out to enjoy being with them, and what over-tired mommy doesn't snap, when their child/children is repeatedly says, "Mommmy..!" ..every minute or so?!

There's always a rainbow, after a storm..

So I've completely stopped my P90X journey, with sick kids, a sick mommy, and letting stress get the best of me, I had a rough week or so.  But I'm getting my act together, got a job offer at my old job, and finally getting myself checked out at the Dr's.. I hate the Dr's, by the way.  I've only gone regularly, for my babies.

So, I start working this Friday.. I am excited, but at the same time, sad.. since I won't be spending as much time with my babies.. and I know most working parents don't.. but I've been a stay at home mom for over 3 years straight.. and although it's been the most tiring 3 years of my life.. I am surely going to miss it.

Pea's Dance!

A very quick and short blog, to post Pea dancing in her kitty cat outfit!

Girls night out!

So, for some reason..I've been really down lately.. mostly at random times.  Haven't been like this in a long time, and not sure exactly what's going on with my body, but it's been affecting my mood, and I've been really tired a lot.  Anyway, today was all planned out, and very slowly, things just started falling apart, and I was having a mental breakdown.  I hate breaking down infront of my girls, but they also find a way to take care of me, and cheer me up.

I had cleaned most of the apartment up the other day, and started working on a project for tomorrow (throwing a little Halloween party, for my daughters and niece..so EXCITED btw!), and things just kept happening during this project, that was making me want to give up.  Anyhow, Hailey helped out, and was being a good girl, while her Ate, was forced to nap.. she took a long time to fall asleep, and Hailey ended up waking her up 20 minutes after she fell asleep.  Anyway, I started to get ready to go out, and started getting Hailey ready.. we were to do some last minute running around for specific ingredients, and then go out to eat as a family, at Asia City.  WELL, a half hour before my husband was supposed to be off work, he tells me that he needs to stay at work.  Of course, I got upset, my day wasn't going as smoothly as I'd liked, and then I find this out.. so whatever.. I dealt with it, still got everyone ready, and then I get another phone call, finding out he doesn't know when he would be done, and that he will pick me and the girls up from home, drop him off at work, and suggested I just take the girls out..which I did.  Even though these girls were a HUGE handful, their giggles made me forget about my anxiety, and all the overwhelming feelings I'd get..

Peyton insisted on having noodles, when I told her I wasn't going to order any.. so I ordered a dish, JUST for her.. which I am now munching on (all her leftovers)..

The kids preferred this instead, which I was originally going to order two of.. wish I did!  They ate most of my protein, and my kanin!

After a few stores, we ended up at Superstore (at a location I am not a fan of..super busy!), here's a video of the girls while I was waiting at self checkout.  Felt bad for the one lady there.. EVERYONE was expecting her to help them first.. not in the order her handheld device was telling her to do..sheesh.

Gooooood morning to me..

It's not even lunch time, and these girls are just so amusing this morning.  We usually sleep in, since the girls have been sick.. but we got woken up to street work, just after 8AM..and I went to use the bathroom, girls door is still slightly shut and dark.. but I listened carefully, and I heard their little voices, just having a random conversation.  Thought it was cute..  then I made their breakfast, lately it's been instant oatmeal..'cause it's easy.  I'm not a morning person, so instant anything is my best friend.  As I was making it, the girls start running out of the kitchen, screaming.. "ahhhh!!  The cows are gonna get us!!  AhhhhhH!" ..then, I give the oatmeal to the girls, and Peyton tries it.. and goes, "YUUM!  It tastes SO GOOD!" in the most valleyest voice, you can imagine on my Sweet PEA.  Then I gave them hot chocolate to drink.. and again.. "hot chocolate??  Yuuum!  How did you make that, Mommy??" ..again, in a super valley voice.

Just thought I'd blog this, before I forget.. :)

Home of the cold..

Had an extremely busy weekend.  We didn't go out Friday night, we stayed in, ate some home made Taco fries (only thing we cheated on, were the frozen McCain Fries)..tried my own taco spice mix..and it tasted really good!  We also watched the hockey game..which they sadly lost.  Saturday morning, my husband dropped Pea and I off at her dance class, and he dropped Hailey off at her Nana & Papa's and then he dropped our car off at a dealership to get work done onto it.  Pea did SO good at dance, and she did so much more, compared to her previous classes.  She at first wasn't in the mood to participate..just walking around following the teachers, then got really into it, 15 minutes later.

After dance class, we then waited for her daddy & Papa to come pick us up, where we afterwards went to get Hailey, and leave Pea at Nana & Papa's for a sleepover.  We waited around there for our car to finish up, and then we dropped Hailey off at her Lolo & Lola's for a sleepover as well.  We then rushed home to get ready to go watch the Bomber game.  Which..they sadly lost.  Was a really close game too, so glad we picked that game to watch.

 

After the Bomber game, we rushed home again to get ready for a Halloween Social..

Hubby was Batman, and I was Harley Quinn!  I had a wardrobe malfunction, which lucky for me, happened at home.. the issue I had with my costume was that the top fit perfectly..but the bottoms weren't stretchy, so they were a tad tight around my booty.  So when I was adjusting my pants, the belt loop ripped right off..which I guess was I sign that I shouldn't be wearing it.  Plus, anytime I walked, or sat down, the elastic would just slide right down my booty.  I ended up wearing a pair of black leggings, and just wore the velcro belt sitting on my hips.  It turned out okay anyhow.  My hubby doesn't "act" excited, I knew he was, but a random girl who happened to be dressed as cat woman had her mom as if she could take a picture of the two of them..which happened while I was in the bathroom.  There were SO many really great costumes at this social, so I'm glad we made the effort to dress up!

Yesterday, we ended up waking up early (looks like we are programmed that way, whether the kids are home or not), and did what we needed at home, and rushed over to Denny's for breakfast..since I was STARVING!

I had their Holiday Skillet..which was SO filling..

Hubby had his usual breakfast.. eggs, ham, sausage, shredded hash browns, pancakes AND toast.. he ate it all..

After that, we picked up Pea, and went over to my parents house for the day.  Ate and watch football and the hockey game again.. which they WON!!  It was pretty exciting..woot!

Today, we all woke up with colds, and Pea has it THE worst..so I have a really good feeling I won't have any time on my plate to get any workouts in.. need to be there for my babies, when they need me..I feel so bad for them.  These are the times where I wish I could just take the pain away from them..

Halloween crafts & REAL baking..

After the girls had their nap, I asked if they wanted to do some halloween crafts that Peyton had picked..and they were super excited.  This was super cute to do with them, and Peyton is such a rockstar, being able to do things on her own, and so is Hailey, for trying so hard :)

Very proud..

Peyton's was the witch, I used the skeleton as an example, and Hailey picked Frankenstein..

Hailey got to choose where to put them..and Peyton wanted to pose with it..

Testing out some cookie recipes, and since all I have is whole wheat flour.. I definitely had to test out how they tasted.  The girls and I thought I tasted fine.. the husband, however..wasn't a fan.  These were sugar cookies, by the way!  I found they were really sticky.. everything was done by hand.. since I don't have a hand mixer, or a mixing bowl thingy..so I don't know if that's why, or if it's because I used whole wheat flour.. anyway..they didn't taste too bad.. you could just tell they were made with whole wheat!

Happy Thanksgiving!

The last few days have been really nice.  Haven't had much to worry about, and not much running around to do.  On Saturday, Bubble Guppies was pretty sweet.  And the looks on our babies faces were so sweet.  They enjoyed the show, for sure.  We then surprised Peyton with a sleepover at her Ate Kai's house for the night..the look on Hailey's face, however, was a little heartbreaking.  She didn't want her big sister leaving her..but as soon as I got back into the car..my little sweetheart cheered up, when she realized her surprise, was that she had mommy and daddy all to herself!

She was the sweetest kid all night, and it was a great reminder, that our little girls are so different in their own silly ways.  Our Hailey baby just loved the attention, and she was not difficult at all.  Especially at bedtime..did our routine (haven't done a proper bedtime routine in a pretty long time)..and she was more than happy to go to bed.

Yesterday, I woke up early to prepare meatballs from a recipe I saw on Facebook (which BTW turned out great), and we all got ready to head over to my parents house.  My sister and I prepped and cooked our turkey..which turned out better than last year.. HOORAY!  We set the table for all the big kids to eat at, and had a little table set up for the kiddies..it was sweet..and went pretty well.
Although, on Saturday night, I was told our relatives had invited us over for Thanksgiving dinner, which put us in a pickle!  We already had our turkey defrosting, and food prepped for the next day..honestly, we weren't expecting an invite this year..oops!  Hopefully, things turn out smoother next year with the entire family.

Today, it's our second Thanksgiving dinner, over at my inlaws..and I'm so excited..YUMMY FOOD!  Which, I actually have to get ready for, right meow ;-)

Pea's 4th day in Dance!

Well!  Today was Pea's dance class again, this morning.. she did great.  Although, she wasn't really in a good mood..she looked pretty tired, and her eczema is starting to come back..that time of the year again.

Anyhow, regardless of that, she seemed to have forgotten all about it as soon as she started.  She's warming up to her classmates and teachers a lot more..still shy, and still hard on herself if she doesn't know what to do, or if she messed up..but she's a trooper!

She was first up, and impressed almost the entire crowd of parents ;)

I don't know if you can hear it, but a few parents mentioned how she set the bar high for the rest of the kiddies!

As for my P90X..I think I am going to have to put it on hold until Tuesday!!  Thanksgiving weekend.. bubble guppies later, and a surprise sleepover for Peapea at Ate Kai's, and date night with my babe, and Hailey baby..woot!

Pea's 3rd day at Dance class.. & Day 5 (P90X)

Pea was so excited last night & this morning for her third day at class.  I had her dancing to, and listening to all sorts of songs & getting her to try and attempt some dance moves that she was watching on youtube (don't worry, no more twerking & booty shakin' for this cutie).

This morning tho, we woke up to our babies calling us to let them out..we usually leave their door open, before we call it a night (they have those safety knobs on their door)..and we got scolded by Peyton to try and remember to keep their door, "next time".  After that, she asked, "guess what's tomorrow??" ..Daddy then corrected her, and said..you mean today?  And she said, "Yeah!  Guess what's today? ..DANCE CLASS!"

She was SUPER adorable, and I know I said no more videos, but I just have to show you all today's solo..

As for my workout today?  Halfway through, I was on the verge of TEARS!  Mind you, I was a bit uneasy, as my husband is home on the weekends, and he was in the room during today's workout.. so you can bet I felt EXTREMELY self-concious.. and a bit embarrassed every time I struggled.  He tried to lighten the mood, by cracking a few jokes..but I was not having it.. I was too frustrated with myself, to give in.

Today, I had to work on more leg workouts, and different pull-up workouts (I used bands).  I had to switch from legs, to pull-ups, a couple more legs, and another set of pull-ups.  I was excited every single time I got to do a set of pull-ups, because it gave my legs a break.  For some reason, my feet kept cramping, so it made my leg workouts, that much excruciating..and uncomfortable.

Anyhow, I pushed through the entire workout..and it's SO rewarding, knowing that I didn't give up.  Also, it's MORE rewarding, knowing that I am putting myself through this program.. anytime I bring it up to anyone, they won't even consider it.  It makes me proud that I'm even attempting it, making me feel like SUPERWOMAN..he..he.. It's not easy, and it's not a workout if it's easy, either.  I hate this program, but I love it at the same time.  Hooray!  I swear, I would definitely recommend this to anyone who is craving a challenge..I DARE YOU!  :)

A little late..

Okay, so here is a video of what Pea's first day of class looked like!  This will be the last video I will be sharing, since it'll be a spoiler if they start learning things for their dance recital!  I will however share my favourite photos!

Pea's 2nd Day at Dance!

Welllll.. Pea had her second dance class yesterday, and she was ADORABLE!  I had helped her during the week, and had her practice some of the moves I noticed she couldn't do at the time.. I could tell she was excited, and proud that she was able to dance with the class.. she also got lost in her own world..spinning, and spinning....and spinning.  I'm SO proud of my Sweet PEA!  I'd say she was the cutest little girl there..but you know, a mother is always biased when it comes between their own children and other children..ha..haa.

On the other hand, Hailey did much better sitting with us, during her Ate's (older sister's) class.  I cannot wait to register her next year..hopefully she will have broken out of her shell!

Anyhow, here is another video of Pea at her dance class..

Sweet Pea's First Day of dance (last Saturday)

I am sharing a video of my baby girl, with her dance class.. so cute!

She was excited, and very nervous for her first day.  She wanted to make new friends, and give a good first impression.  She did VERY well, although you can tell how shy she was.. she kept her hands clasped together, holding them politely on her tummy..and she followed the teachers everywhere they went.  Although, she didn't do every move they were teaching them to do..she participated in the more important activities..and she was ADORABLE!