Today is my last day being at home with the girls..and it's hitting me HARD. I'm a super suck when it comes to family, or even more, my own kids. I would give anything to stay at home with them, and watch them grow into beautiful little girls.. but since being a SAHM isn't a paying job, I need to go make some money, and help my hubby out.. at this rate, it would take us a few more years to move out of this apartment.. and I'd like it to happen a lot sooner.. so when my old boss contacted me and offered me a job.. I didn't hesitate to take it. All the other jobs I applied for didn't even give me an interview, except for one. And at the job I'm going back into, I didn't apply for, or even need to get an interview.. so I took it as a sign.
Earlier, I held my babies tight, and let the tears flow. I didn't think it would be that hard for me to realize how much time will be taken away from them.. I will definitely appreciate being with them more so, then I used too, 'cause let's face it.. staying home and doing all the chores and raising kids, is NOT easy, and it is totally draining. So there are definitely days where I'm too zoned out to enjoy being with them, and what over-tired mommy doesn't snap, when their child/children is repeatedly says, "Mommmy..!" ..every minute or so?!
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