Pea's Dance solo.. and update!

So, I am no longer a stay at home mommy, as I have started working full-time last Friday!  Hooray!  Although, I will not have much time for my babies, which believe me.. I cried A LOT.. nothing means more to me, than seeing my babies grow up.  I don't like missing a THING.  And I love being the centre of attention when it comes to both my daughters eyes.. but, I do need to help my hubby out, so a mommy's gotta' do, what a mommy's gotta do.  It's taking too long to get to where we'd like to be.. and when the opportunity came up, and I got a job offer.. I didn't hesitate to go and take it.  Too many signs were leading up to that moment.  Anyhow!  Here is today's dance solo, featuring..my one and only.. SWEET PEA! <3

Back to reality..

Today is my last day being at home with the girls..and it's hitting me HARD.  I'm a super suck when it comes to family, or even more, my own kids.  I would give anything to stay at home with them, and watch them grow into beautiful little girls.. but since being a SAHM isn't a paying job, I need to go make some money, and help my hubby out.. at this rate, it would take us a few more years to move out of this apartment.. and I'd like it to happen a lot sooner.. so when my old boss contacted me and offered me a job.. I didn't hesitate to take it.  All the other jobs I applied for didn't even give me an interview, except for one.  And at the job I'm going back into, I didn't apply for, or even need to get an interview.. so I took it as a sign.

Earlier, I held my babies tight, and let the tears flow.  I didn't think it would be that hard for me to realize how much time will be taken away from them.. I will definitely appreciate being with them more so, then I used too, 'cause let's face it.. staying home and doing all the chores and raising kids, is NOT easy, and it is totally draining.  So there are definitely days where I'm too zoned out to enjoy being with them, and what over-tired mommy doesn't snap, when their child/children is repeatedly says, "Mommmy..!" ..every minute or so?!

There's always a rainbow, after a storm..

So I've completely stopped my P90X journey, with sick kids, a sick mommy, and letting stress get the best of me, I had a rough week or so.  But I'm getting my act together, got a job offer at my old job, and finally getting myself checked out at the Dr's.. I hate the Dr's, by the way.  I've only gone regularly, for my babies.

So, I start working this Friday.. I am excited, but at the same time, sad.. since I won't be spending as much time with my babies.. and I know most working parents don't.. but I've been a stay at home mom for over 3 years straight.. and although it's been the most tiring 3 years of my life.. I am surely going to miss it.

Pea's Dance!

A very quick and short blog, to post Pea dancing in her kitty cat outfit!

Girls night out!

So, for some reason..I've been really down lately.. mostly at random times.  Haven't been like this in a long time, and not sure exactly what's going on with my body, but it's been affecting my mood, and I've been really tired a lot.  Anyway, today was all planned out, and very slowly, things just started falling apart, and I was having a mental breakdown.  I hate breaking down infront of my girls, but they also find a way to take care of me, and cheer me up.

I had cleaned most of the apartment up the other day, and started working on a project for tomorrow (throwing a little Halloween party, for my daughters and niece..so EXCITED btw!), and things just kept happening during this project, that was making me want to give up.  Anyhow, Hailey helped out, and was being a good girl, while her Ate, was forced to nap.. she took a long time to fall asleep, and Hailey ended up waking her up 20 minutes after she fell asleep.  Anyway, I started to get ready to go out, and started getting Hailey ready.. we were to do some last minute running around for specific ingredients, and then go out to eat as a family, at Asia City.  WELL, a half hour before my husband was supposed to be off work, he tells me that he needs to stay at work.  Of course, I got upset, my day wasn't going as smoothly as I'd liked, and then I find this out.. so whatever.. I dealt with it, still got everyone ready, and then I get another phone call, finding out he doesn't know when he would be done, and that he will pick me and the girls up from home, drop him off at work, and suggested I just take the girls out..which I did.  Even though these girls were a HUGE handful, their giggles made me forget about my anxiety, and all the overwhelming feelings I'd get..

Peyton insisted on having noodles, when I told her I wasn't going to order any.. so I ordered a dish, JUST for her.. which I am now munching on (all her leftovers)..

The kids preferred this instead, which I was originally going to order two of.. wish I did!  They ate most of my protein, and my kanin!

After a few stores, we ended up at Superstore (at a location I am not a fan of..super busy!), here's a video of the girls while I was waiting at self checkout.  Felt bad for the one lady there.. EVERYONE was expecting her to help them first.. not in the order her handheld device was telling her to do..sheesh.

Gooooood morning to me..

It's not even lunch time, and these girls are just so amusing this morning.  We usually sleep in, since the girls have been sick.. but we got woken up to street work, just after 8AM..and I went to use the bathroom, girls door is still slightly shut and dark.. but I listened carefully, and I heard their little voices, just having a random conversation.  Thought it was cute..  then I made their breakfast, lately it's been instant oatmeal..'cause it's easy.  I'm not a morning person, so instant anything is my best friend.  As I was making it, the girls start running out of the kitchen, screaming.. "ahhhh!!  The cows are gonna get us!!  AhhhhhH!" ..then, I give the oatmeal to the girls, and Peyton tries it.. and goes, "YUUM!  It tastes SO GOOD!" in the most valleyest voice, you can imagine on my Sweet PEA.  Then I gave them hot chocolate to drink.. and again.. "hot chocolate??  Yuuum!  How did you make that, Mommy??" ..again, in a super valley voice.

Just thought I'd blog this, before I forget.. :)

Pumpkin Carving!

So since the weekend, Peyton's been very sick, and I thought for sure that Hailey would be super sick too by now.  But, Peyton's almost better, just a lot of dry coughing.  And Hailey, with a sniffly noes!  The past few weeks, we were supposed to let the girls choose a large pumpkin from the store, that they could clear out and help choose the design to carve onto it.. but things kept coming up, and we would literally forget as we did our groceries.  Then, the last week, I just told my husband to just go pick up a pumpkin, which again, he would forget.. so luckily, my brother-in-laws girlfriend happened to get pumpkins for the girls..and we were supposed to come over and have the girls do pumpkins at their Nana & Papa's, and we were going to do a large one of our own at home (I thought.. lucky girls!).. but since they've been sick all week, I didn't think we would be able to come over at all, and we were struggling to remember to grab a dang pumpkin!  So my mother-in-law told my husband we should just pick up the girls pumpkins from their house, so here we are today!  Girls waited all day to get started!  I gave them a few choices.. Disney cartoon characters.. Jets logos, or something spooky.. and Hailey yelled, "JETS"!!, and Peyton yelled out, "SOMETHING SPOOOOOoOOKY"!!.  So as I was making the templates, I started with Hailey's first, and I guess Pea liked it, so she said.. "mommy, I want the Jets too!".. so I ended up doing so, and added a little bat :)

Here's a few pictures of them scraping out all the seeds..and as you can see, Princess Pea wasn't too happy with messy hands..

She eventually got over it.. as you can now see how happy she is!

Look at ALL the seeds, these 2 little pumpkins produced!

Here are the templates I made for the pumpkins..

I thought this one would be difficult to do.. but it was more time consuming, than anything..

This one, on the other hand was difficult!  Thought I was going to screw it up!

Here are the finished pumpkins!